This is not FUN.

I meant to write this weekend, I had such good news.....Friday, the day after chemo was soooo good.  I had energy, I wasn't tired or sick.  I was so optomistic that the rest of this treatment was going to go better.  Euphoria would be a good word to describe my mood.  Saturday started a little slower, and through the day I became more tired and towards the end of the day, I started to feel sore.  Sunday I woke up really sore.  My feet, legs, hips, arms, shoulders, neck, and hands. My feet feel like some  one beat the bottoms with a stick. But inside.   Similar to growing pains I guess, it is really hard to describe.  It aches and hurts.  I tried walking, thinking that exercise and blood flow would help.  Wrong.  Then I tried a warm bath.  Wrong again.  So I look like a little old person, limping around and hunched over, easing into my chair.  

The good news is that I found out that the cool of the pool helps for a little bit.  So I have been in and out of it a number of times today.  (YEA, we have a pool!!!)  The doctor's office said the pain  should go away sometime this week.   I am ready.  Other than being really ticked that I have cancer, and that there are more treatments, things are fine.  

I am so proud of our kids, they have shown me such love and care and they constantly make me smile.  How did they get so smart and courageous?  Rachel will be mountain climbing in the Cascades and then Peru later this summer! She is working full time and going to school full time.   Kate is in DC for the summer as an intern for the Department of Defense and then will be graduating college!  And then getting her Master's Degree.  Danny is strong and caring and insightful and great at his job, too.    So I will think about this and quit complaining..... Sorry for the whining.  

Next summer, Dan and I will have some adventures to replace the memories of this summer at home.  

Love you, Carmine