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Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Hot, Hot, Hot

Summer is in Phoenix now.  Yesterday was 102 degrees.  I needed to exercise for many reasons, but it was too hot and bright out.  I went to the mall and walked and walked and rested on all those little sofas and benches scattered along the way.  I seem to move in slow motion for now, and still get tired so often.  

We had sad news at the beginning of the day, a friend passed away in hospice care.  She was an inspiration to many, and loved life, touching many around her.  Her death from breast cancer is emotional and hard.  

I pictured myself being strong in this fight, not so emotional and physically tired.  I know it is just my body getting used to the drugs of chemo, and the chemo doing what it is supposed to do, but I would like to be a  valiant warrior charging forward.  I am hoping that as I get used to the regimen that I have more energy and can accomplish more, live a little more enthusiastically.  I miss being at work at Neighborhood Ministries, and the energy and care that being there involves.  It is fairly overwhelming to think of driving back and forth though.  

The good news is that I like how easy short hair is.  And Dan is taking such good and careful care of me.  Our dog is so happy to have  someone around the house all day.  

I am sorry if this is not a very fun read today.  More later. Love you, Carmine

2 comments:

  1. Carmine....I am sorry to read about the loss of your friend. It must be particularly difficult with all you are fighting.
    Be sure to take a moment to realize what an inspiration you are to others as well. You may not feel strong but your actions, outlook and thoughts demonstrate your strength! Emotions are OK....we all get emotional about the things that are important to us or that we feel are out of our control.
    Exercising!!! Good for you! Hey, I get tired walking the mall too....enjoy the people-watching we never seem to make time for while you rest! There has to be a ton of humor and entertainment in that!
    Valiant warriors don't always charge.....they take slow, determined, thoughtful and planful steps to win their battles.....you are a valient warrior!

    Keep it up you 2! You are doing great!
    Love Nancie & Eric

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  2. Exercise - brings to mind a Woody Allen quote: "80 percent of success is just showing up." Way to do what it takes to make it happen. Inspired me to push myself in my workout today, even if I have to stop and catch my breath as well. Thanks for the motivation, CB!

    JT

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